The Luckiest

I've written before about rediscovering a song that you once loved. It happened again, relatively recently, and whenever the song randomly shuffles into my iPod, I'm always taken aback. The song is called "The Luckiest" by Ben Folds... and it's just beautiful. It's a lovey-dovey song which I usually don't go for, but for some reason, this particular track's lyrics are just beautifully expressed.

I also think about the first time I heard the song. One of my (at the time) best friends played it for me in his office. He told me about a mutual friend we had who thought it was so beautiful that she cried each time she heard it. He told me that I should just go and buy the entire album as I'd love it. He was right.

He and I ended up being house mates for about 8 months and in that time I managed to completely mess up that friendship (as I've done so very often with so many of the people I've been closest with over the years) and I completely regret it.

I'm sorry. I really, sincerely am. For all of it.

Maybe the positive I can take out of this is the fact I've just said what I have shows that I have grown a bit over these past few years. I could never admit that I was wrong or that something was my fault. I don't think I make too many mistakes professionally... but wow... I've been a royal screw up with my friends. Hopefully I will learn.

While I don't have the relationship discussed in "The Luckiest" with anyone right now, I do think I'm pretty lucky. And this blog has helped me see how fortunate I am.